“I went down to the bottoms of the mountains; the earth with her bars was about me for ever: yet hast thou brought up my life from corruption, O LORD my God.” Jonah 2:6 KJV

“Heal her so her kids can know what its like to have a healthy Mom.” ~~Sister Ema Michelle

Those words stuck with me, and still encourage me. When my youngest aspirated, had a seizure died and God brought him back to life & when my oldest got bit by a dog in the face, God put those words in my heart each occurrence to remind me I had been healed and I am able to overcome these obstacles. I remembered the tools God gave me at the Jeremiah 9 Writers Workshop:

1. Walk by Faith
2. Speak Life
3. Cry out To God
4. Praise God
5. Ask for help
6. Trust God will bring you through
7. Stay Focused on God

Each moment when I have to do something I remember those words. Every situation is not even me with my kids, its any situation. I don’t know why as of yet, but I believe that God wants my children to have a healed Mother. I show up as her because I am her. I know this because God called for the wailing women and they wailed for me! They cried to God for me! They overcame by the blood of the lamb and their testimonies! They encouraged me in God’s word and they embraced my tears and didnt say: :that’s enough.” they allowed the tears to flow, and I was held spiritually and physically. I was surrounded by words from ABBA’s daughters and they were pouring into me so much that I realized I don’t have to stay sad, depressed, ultimately miserable anymore. 

I know I went there to have the author experience, but I had more: God had brought my life from corruption! 

I had prayed in the year 2021 for God to allow me to write and do hair: Be my own boss so I could be off for his feast days and be available always for him in any way and he allowed this experience to be for me, God poured into me and he used Woman, My Sisters to do so.